"It's not a...but..." That is now a part of my vocabulary.


As in..."It's not a heart attack, but..."


Yep, almost 6 months later, I still have to preface every little ache, and uncomfortable feeling with, "It is not a heart attack, but..."


...but I don't feel good.
...but I have a headache.
...but my chest hurts when I breathe.
...but I don't WANNA eat my broccoli....(woops, not sure how that snuck in there)


Yep, my chest CAN hurt without it being a heart attack. Of course, that is the first thing I think is happening,  but so far (other than Nov 22) it has not been the case.


I hope that someday I can tell my beautiful wife that something hurts without needing that little preamble. For now, I just need to be willing to start every sentence with, "It's not a..."


Why not just keep it too myself? Because I promised. Remember? About 95 or 100 posts ago, I told you that I promised Ashley I wouldn't keep anything from her; I wouldn't hide any bad feelings. I need to tell her everything, even now, so that she will continue to trust me.


So...why am I telling you about this now, today?


Well, because I don't feel great right now. I am stuffed up, I have sinus pressure, and I have a burning "pain" in my chest and back. Now...understand..it's not a heart attack. I can tell you from experience that it is not.


I don't know what it is & we are going to watch and see if I feel better tomorrow, but I can assure you, it's not a...


Well...I bet you can fill in the rest.


Keep those prayers coming for my dad. He is doing better, a LITTLE better today. He still needs all of the good mojo he can get.


Good night & God bless.