Tonight will be short. Sorry gang, but I am just exhausted tonight.
It has been a very busy weekend and I am just plain tired.

And, I am paying for my Mexican food. Like I thought I spent the day thinking about what I had eaten last night....remember? Mexican food...

Part of that time thinking was really worrying. Worrying that I had messed up all of my hard work thus far, worrying that I had taken advantage of the blessing God gave me. That is a tiring thing to do all day.

Worse...I got to thinking that I had screwed up last night & survived so why be careful? It became "ok" that I didn't pay attention to my diet. So, even though I had worries in the back of my mind, the FRONT of my mind was thinking, "it'll be okay for 1 more day." I gave in and, for a day, I gave up.

I am disappointed in myself for not paying better attention.

I hope that some day I can "take a break" and not pay attention to what I eat. Today, should not have been that day.

To all of you, most especially to my wife and kids, I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry that I wasted this weekend.

To say now that tomorrow will be better would be easy. I hope to be able to say tomorrow NIGHT that tomorrow was better & that I felt like I was "back on the wagon."

That's it tonight; sad, disappointed, and yet hopeful.

Please keep me in your thoughts & prayers tonight that tomorrow I have the strength to return to the lifestyle that had me feeling so strong and well on my way to recovery.


Good night & God bless.