Last night was a very powerful night for me & writing the post took a lot out of me.

So, I am not sure what to write about tonight. In fact, I had most of a post written and deleted it. I started another one & stopped. As I try again to write and reflect, I will ask for some your patience and understanding if this post is a little disjointed.

After last night, I promised you all a more uplifting post tonight.

And yet...

And yet...I was at work today as if nothing happened. It was quite "usual".
And yet...I didn't have rehab today, so I can't give you any uplifting news there.
And yet...I have a little girl with pink eye  & a double ear infection.

How's THAT for uplifting? It is actually pretty...well...boring, isn't it?

But maybe that is the uplifting thing in and of itself. Today was boring. Today was usual.

Maybe...
Maybe...today is the day I start to put the heart attack behind me & start living in the present.
Maybe...today is the day I begin to take the word "new" out of the phrase, "My new lifestyle."
Maybe...today I can help someone else with their situation, ignoring my own.

If that is the case, I am doing pretty well thank-you.

I am certainly not saying I am "all better", or that I have been perfect in my eating, and I probably still don't get enough sleep. So, I am not a "new man." But, I made better food decisions, I will get to bed right after I finish this post and I was thinking about someone ELSE's problem today instead of my own. And none of it feels strange, it all feels normal.

Maybe I am truly starting to recover mentally.
And yet, I know I have to keep working and keep trying and keep improving.

Now, if you have it in you, please offer prayers again for the family of the boy who just passed away. I'm doing pretty good right now & would  love to know our prayers were going to someone who certainly needs them more than I do tonight.

That is it for tonight. I hope it wasn't too hard to read, and it was not too heavy.

Good night and God bless.