If you have been reading this, you are a glutton for punishment....no wait...


If you have been reading this, you know it has been a tough few months for me (AND you are a glutton for punishment).


I have seen a number of friends experience some serious loss. I have had doubts about how well I am doing on keeping my heart healthy. I have lost my father.


After I took some time off from this blog, I came back to it & I have been talking about my woes and my worries since.


Well, tonight I need to talk about something else; actually, someONE else...my friend, my partner, my wife.


Through all of this, she has of course had her own trials;  a new job, my increased travels, and her own heartache over losing my dad. Yet, through it all, she has been there as my crutch.


Sometimes that means holding me so I can cry. Sometimes it means telling me to grow up & STOP crying. Sometimes it just means letting me know that I was not alone...even in silence.


I may not always like what she has to say when she says it; "No, you can't have any of those."
I am not going to tell you that I realize now it was only for my own good.....that is a little to cliché even for ME.


I WILL tell you that if not for my wife, I would not be nearly as well off as I am now. I can't take care of myself...not like she can. Even now, I still call her to ask her if I can have certain things to eat. I still look to her to remind me that I need to work out even when I am not at rehab. I STILL tell her every time I "cheat" a little....just so I know my guardian angel has all of the facts. Well, okay, MAAAAYYYYBE it is more to control the guilt of cheating.


I don't call her my love any more....I just skip all of that and call her "My Heart".


I have not given her enough consideration before in this blog. So I hope that today's post gives you a small idea of how important she is to me; not just form an emotional standpoint of loving her so much, but form the standpoint of needing someone to keep me in line, someone to watch over me, and someone to help me make good decisions.


A friend, a lover, a COACH, and angel....in short....My Heart.
To Ashley, thanks. I do love you so much.


To the rest of you, good night & God bless.