I have to take a road trip tomorrow.
That scares me...

I am not worried about a heart attack while I am driving. I am not worried about my family being okay. Ashley, you have taken care of the family without me before & you will be able to again.

I am not worried about the traffic or an accident...

...I am worried about lunch.

Yes, lunch terrifies me sine it will likely come from a roadside stop at a fast food place or <<gulp>> a convenience store. Otherwise known as a salt mine and a fat factory.


I have been really good about not falling off the wagon, and I have been pretty good about coming up with a lifestyle of food that keeps me trim, and heart healthy. I have pretty well hit a balance of low salt, low fat and still keeping a diet I can hold myself to...forever.

Tomorrow will NOT derail me & make me fall off the wagon, but it COULD put me in a bad place and it could give me a few days of worry.

Yes, each and every meal still gives me pause to wonder if I am within my boundaries. Yes, I am STILL in a place where I worry about getting beaten by a single meal. Silly as it sounds, I fear getting a meal that doesn't fit my allowed parameters and having it impact me in a bad way later. I mean where does damage begin? Do I have to eat badly for a WEEK, a DAY, or just a MEAL for it to hurt my heart? Where does all of the hard work I have done so far get undone?

Yep, like it or not, I am terrified that I will be okay on my trip.

Say a prayer & be thinking about me at lunch time tomorrow.

Good night & God bless.